Worthy

About a month ago we were in the thick of getting ready for Mike's open house. Trying to do all those things that just never seem to get done. I was feeling overwhelmed. I had asked different family members for help on different things, and the response I was given was not what I was hoping for. It made me feel worthless, like what I wanted or felt didn't matter to anyone. I was in the barn with the showpigs, and noticed the feeders were empty, yet another thing that needed done that no one else was doing. So I filled feeders, all the while my depression building. Once I was done, I grabbed a bucket, flipped it upside down and sat there in the pen with the pigs (it is something we do to train them to be calm around people) because that is where I felt I belonged at the time, not worthy of anything better. Sent a text to a very dear friend of mine to pray as my mind was not in a good place. Finally felt a little more under control, but not ready to talk to anyone yet, so I got a pig out and went for a walk. I came around the corner of the barn and looked up to see the house and trees ablaze in color. It was stunning, I turned around to see the most beautiful sunset I have ever seen in my life. God spoke to me in that moment and let me know that even if I were the only one left, I was worthy of that gift.
I love it when God uses something pretty simple like a sunset to teach me a lesson.