Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Choice

Been a while since I have posted, I guess I'm looking to be profound, so many good great blogs out there and I feel a little intimidated. But when I set out to do a blog it was more about writing my thoughts down so that someday I could print a blog book for my kids, maybe even grand kids, that they would have something concrete that they could read about what their mom/mammaw thought, what life was like for her.
I'd like to think that I will pass things on to my kids, my faith being one of the most important things. And maybe it's time I think less of what anyone that reads my blog thinks, which is hard for me as I'm often driven by what people think, and just let this place be a place where I can write what I think, and it is what it is.
There has been a thought that has popped up many times over the last several days. Often times when that happens I think God is trying to get my attention. Repetition works for me. It is the thought that you can chose your attitude. Heard it in a sermon, read it in a blog, and have seen it a couple other places. It's all about choosing joy, choosing to be happy. I can choose to be negative, focus on the bad things, or I can find the positive in it. Man is that hard.
I have lived my life reacting, and letting my feelings control me. Who said they get to be in charge? Usually gets my into trouble when that happens.I stumbled upon a blog that had my attention quick, Sara's story  is a great blog, but take kleenex when you go to read. It stuns me she can go through what she is going through, and yet remain joyful. I have a friend whose testimony I have heard once, because it is too hard for me to listen to more than that, yet is one of the most joy filled people I know. I am certain she has her bad days, but she chooses joy. It amazes me that they can do that, I know why they can, or Who helps them through the bad stuff. Just not there yet for me, will keep working at it, one step at a time.
Today, I choose Joy, tomorrow I'll have to make that choice again, with God's help I will.